the pain of december

I've said GOODBYE

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Somewhere….

it's a place where we expect it as a CLASSY
(not really)
(overrated)

view from the room (zoomed shot)

view in the room

non-caption shot

as dead corpse

V-signed shot

the elevator

pool at skypark - sexay babes (no hunks)

well, saw in their website, if you book online for a room here, AND you do found another price with the lower rate within 24 hours, they might just upgrade your room to next level, FOC
(kinda like Jetstar so-called imitation to promote their rooms)

Info at here

(didn't have a nice staying experience though - was given a smoking room)

nevertheless, it's a FOC room, so… not much to say, except THKS to the person that gave us the stay


Rates of the rooms/suites? Check here

p/s : had the stay in July

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Sunrise

you don't know me

I think I need a new town

to leave this all behind

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闭着眼睛流泪 想要冷静

6月竟然忘了曼迪的生日
忘了忘了忘了
算是第一次吧～

我们都长大了
周围都变了
性格也该变
依然是朋友
但是没那么close了

回到过去是不可能的事
回忆只能保留在记忆里
将来也许也不一样了
走的路不同

但是

还是会选择不忘记

抱歉
没想到这次没把你放在心里

也许心开始慢慢滴空虚

最近
不停的听着我好想你
想到了你
也不停的听放我自由

有关联吗？

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做了梦

30-06

from a seed, grow roots...
and first leaf
then bud and lastly it blooms
but in the end..
it died

Passion

not sure when the passion to blog started to lost 

obstacle obstacle obstacle

inspiration came just before sleep or before turn off the laptop

but yet, can't manage to cope with time

oh TIME! can you stop for a while

let my 'pastime' lasts longer

D:

soon

hopefully

can rewind back all the trips, ventures, etc...

til then...

SPOILER:

Kluang Railway Station

Sesame Street Performance at USS

Garden by the Bay

Baby ZiWei 

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Protect Me

been emo for months

been sad for months

been angry for months

can I leave all that behind?

it will be an irresponsible act

which I won't be able to do, in whole life

and, again...

every Sun I'll attend Sun service

pray that The Almighty will give me strength

to live through the week ahead

(emo state)

wish this all can be gone with wind

and the sky shall be bright with sunshine when I awake

Dearest Father,

Please keep me safe and protect me from devil thoughts

Please strengthen my heart to go through the week ahead

Please guide me through all the difficulties

With the name of Lord,

Amen.

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Lie

House's Owner : Actually how long you been here and what's your current job?

Me : *Thinking*

House's Owner : What did you do back at the hometown before?

Me : Well, better start with after my graduation from high school

House's Owner : Very well then, that's would be better!



After I graduated, I applied several colleges but I didn't went to any of them because of the high fees. Then, I went to KL to find a part-time job, and surprisingly I was offered to work as freelance model at a small local magazine company. Not to say as a model precisely, I just be a 'foot wear' model. And, with the salary I gained, enough for me to pay rental and daily expenses. But, I can't save much money with the salary I earned. Freelance means only if have available job, then I'll just have income. Therefore, I was persuaded by a friend to come here last 4 years. And, I was again offered to do modelling, yet I rejected them. I chose administration job instead. That's how I ended here.


House's Owner : Oohhh...

Roommate : *Stare in shock*


*of course the story is a bluff, but with my height, I can easily cheats people about my previous job, haha!*

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Lost 迷失

(credit to Zoe, re-edit by Jen)

真是有一段时间没进来了

因为都在想要把整个template换个新的

终于今天找个时间换一换了

这两个月里性情超差的

感觉迷失了自己

不再是自我

找不到理由关心自己

关心别人多过自己

it's just probably nature

others come 1st before me

at least that is what I felt

也渐渐发觉不懂自己想要什么

很多东西都由别人想要的排成第一

自己的排第二

should I give way?

很多事都不在状况

失踪了

不见了

找不回

should have be more cold-blooded?

letting go?

aim a new direction?

-no answer-

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同事与同事

dv moh     : 最近工作怎样咧？

me            : 哎～一样～会不会觉得有些同事真的“卖鱼”？

dv moh     : 有啊！我那边的同事也会～我刚进的时候说的话一套，现在说的话又是一套

me            : 真不明白为什么不能互相帮忙，干嘛会“卖鱼”！

dv moh     : 是囖是囖！说什么如果有人家讲你是新人什么都不会，要教又麻烦，你不用理他们，现在说这番话的人也是在背后骂你讲你的，还有哦，如果on leave时，你的team不是会cover你的工囖，但是，他们不会帮忙的咧！那个人回来就中骂囖～

me            : 这就叫打太极囖！我公司也还不是会这样～打的几厉害下咧！真的很显也！(＞人＜;) 而且，我们还分及分派的莫！旧派，新派，上等派，“lanang”派，“win win”派。。。7乱8乱的～

dv moh     : 哎！能怎么办，我们打工也是为了赚钱嘛～公司是好啦。。。只是同事真的。。。

me            : 对囖！我看咱们也做不久。。。也是因为“同事”

dv moh & me    : （´-`）.｡oO

=_=

应该不只我一个面对过酱的问题吧

除了做“忍者”也没别的办法了

［除非很幸运滴进到很温❤的公司］

p/s : dv moh = pig girl in Foochow

p/p/s : lanang / win win = 莫莫国家的种族，不方便透露

-(the dialogue is almost correct at the time of conversation)-

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2013~ new resolutions?

fireworks above our head! how cool is that! except for the debris after few shot... -.-|||

was pretty high during the countdown street concert at KL

the trip was OK except for the phone's lost part T^T

so...it been 10 days now since 2012

and everyone have at least 1 new resolution

made me thinking do I need have too??? o.O

okaayyy....maybe I should, just for a reminder for myself...haha!

1. get myself to get used to rush everything<< did procrastinate a lot
2. new template or banner for my site << started to get bored of it
3. masters my baby MAC by first half year << T3T MAC just too hard to learn
4. make more friends, especially around my age XD << my friends range just too small
5. finish all the books I had << had started read since last week o.O
6. finish all the comics I had << maybe after I done with my books?
7. register myself for a short course << means need save from now onwards, no more overspending
8. complete my online study << accessible til July (die!die!)
9. plan on my special trip << just hoping there will be cheap sales on the flight ticket >.<
10. find a new job with a higher salary << dependent on finance status either to allow changes -___-

actually, have 1 or 2 more than this but gonna keep it for myself

hehe *smirk*

yea...hopefully can done all by this first half year

(umm, maybe except for last,lolz!)

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還給自己沒愛過的昨天

還原每個從前 

清掉你的細節 
還給自己沒愛過的昨天

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Gaining despite of Lossing

Sad case when lost the smartphone to the pick-pocket... Darn!!! Why so cruel.... :(

Lost the SD card but luckily had dropbox in the phone so manage to transfer to iPod... Glad for this :|

Some of the photos :-

time to survey for a new phone..

haiz! people just will recommend for IP5 or S3 or Note II

but... weirdo just like the other way round than ordinary people do

so... tough choice this time :(

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