Lie

House's Owner : Actually how long you been here and what's your current job?

Me : *Thinking*

House's Owner : What did you do back at the hometown before?

Me : Well, better start with after my graduation from high school

House's Owner : Very well then, that's would be better!



After I graduated, I applied several colleges but I didn't went to any of them because of the high fees. Then, I went to KL to find a part-time job, and surprisingly I was offered to work as freelance model at a small local magazine company. Not to say as a model precisely, I just be a 'foot wear' model. And, with the salary I gained, enough for me to pay rental and daily expenses. But, I can't save much money with the salary I earned. Freelance means only if have available job, then I'll just have income. Therefore, I was persuaded by a friend to come here last 4 years. And, I was again offered to do modelling, yet I rejected them. I chose administration job instead. That's how I ended here.


House's Owner : Oohhh...

Roommate : *Stare in shock*


*of course the story is a bluff, but with my height, I can easily cheats people about my previous job, haha!*

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Lost 迷失

(credit to Zoe, re-edit by Jen)

真是有一段时间没进来了

因为都在想要把整个template换个新的

终于今天找个时间换一换了

这两个月里性情超差的

感觉迷失了自己

不再是自我

找不到理由关心自己

关心别人多过自己

it's just probably nature

others come 1st before me

at least that is what I felt

也渐渐发觉不懂自己想要什么

很多东西都由别人想要的排成第一

自己的排第二

should I give way?

很多事都不在状况

失踪了

不见了

找不回

should have be more cold-blooded?

letting go?

aim a new direction?

-no answer-

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同事与同事

dv moh     : 最近工作怎样咧？

me            : 哎～一样～会不会觉得有些同事真的“卖鱼”？

dv moh     : 有啊！我那边的同事也会～我刚进的时候说的话一套，现在说的话又是一套

me            : 真不明白为什么不能互相帮忙，干嘛会“卖鱼”！

dv moh     : 是囖是囖！说什么如果有人家讲你是新人什么都不会，要教又麻烦，你不用理他们，现在说这番话的人也是在背后骂你讲你的，还有哦，如果on leave时，你的team不是会cover你的工囖，但是，他们不会帮忙的咧！那个人回来就中骂囖～

me            : 这就叫打太极囖！我公司也还不是会这样～打的几厉害下咧！真的很显也！(＞人＜;) 而且，我们还分及分派的莫！旧派，新派，上等派，“lanang”派，“win win”派。。。7乱8乱的～

dv moh     : 哎！能怎么办，我们打工也是为了赚钱嘛～公司是好啦。。。只是同事真的。。。

me            : 对囖！我看咱们也做不久。。。也是因为“同事”

dv moh & me    : （´-`）.｡oO

=_=

应该不只我一个面对过酱的问题吧

除了做“忍者”也没别的办法了

［除非很幸运滴进到很温❤的公司］

p/s : dv moh = pig girl in Foochow

p/p/s : lanang / win win = 莫莫国家的种族，不方便透露

-(the dialogue is almost correct at the time of conversation)-

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2013~ new resolutions?

fireworks above our head! how cool is that! except for the debris after few shot... -.-|||

was pretty high during the countdown street concert at KL

the trip was OK except for the phone's lost part T^T

so...it been 10 days now since 2012

and everyone have at least 1 new resolution

made me thinking do I need have too??? o.O

okaayyy....maybe I should, just for a reminder for myself...haha!

1. get myself to get used to rush everything<< did procrastinate a lot
2. new template or banner for my site << started to get bored of it
3. masters my baby MAC by first half year << T3T MAC just too hard to learn
4. make more friends, especially around my age XD << my friends range just too small
5. finish all the books I had << had started read since last week o.O
6. finish all the comics I had << maybe after I done with my books?
7. register myself for a short course << means need save from now onwards, no more overspending
8. complete my online study << accessible til July (die!die!)
9. plan on my special trip << just hoping there will be cheap sales on the flight ticket >.<
10. find a new job with a higher salary << dependent on finance status either to allow changes -___-

actually, have 1 or 2 more than this but gonna keep it for myself

hehe *smirk*

yea...hopefully can done all by this first half year

(umm, maybe except for last,lolz!)

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還給自己沒愛過的昨天

還原每個從前 

清掉你的細節 
還給自己沒愛過的昨天

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