Monday, July 12

aNGeL ~vs~ DeMoN


demon says, come follow to my sanctuary
angel says, no! he will bring you to fire dump!

angel says, let me show you my way
demon says, nah! she will lead you to boredom!

demon says, let me bring you to joyful ground
angel says, my! he will lead you to absentmindedness! 

angel says, behave yourselves in this world
demon says, ah! human exists in this world because of their mistakes!

demon says, be unruling
angel says, don't! it will leads to hastiness & chaos!

angels says, be yourself and leads yourselves to good path
demon says, duh! 'be someone' you don't like?!

demon says, let's roars the whole universe
angel says, stop! peacefulness makes you reach high state of mind!

angel says, bewares of those temptation that makes you out of control
demon says, c'mon! yourselves are own master

********

silent

 ********

demon! i like u, but...

angel! i love u, but...
STOP

i've sanctuary around me
i know the way to protect myself

i've created my own path
i did enjoyed my life enough

i do behave and misbehave

that's how i learn to be mortal
i been ruled and did broke the rule

its makes me survive til' nowadays
sounds are control-able
doesn't means of peace or chao

yes, demon, you're rite! i'm master of my own...
but, no, demon, i'm daughter of the GOD as well

angel, i'm just mortal...
anger, sorrow, joy, depression, sastifaction

i need to express it
i do not wish to hide these

apology for my pretendness
just let me....be half DeMon as well as half AngEl....

before i ready....
GOD BLESS~

Friday, July 9

可惜不是你





昨晚跟一帮朋友唱K去
也点了这首歌
之前不懂在那一部戏有听到这首歌
就在下载歌时看到这个歌名
就下载听听看
真的很不错。。。

“可惜不是你        陪我到最后
  曾一起走却走失那路口
  感谢那是你        牵过我的手
  还能感受那温柔~~~~~”

Monday, July 5

aM i DYiNG -or- LiViNG

...5.55pm

my eye sights are blinded; i could not see anything
candies are put in my mouth; yet could not taste anything
sounds are around me; yet i could not hear anything
the air is fragrance; yet i could not smell anything
i try to reach out; but my arms not willing to move
people are touching my hands; yet i could not feel anything
i try to walk; but my heart said no
hugs are for me; yet i do not felt the warm
i do thinking still...
every seconds & moments....
my heart beating still...
inevitably....


yet.... am i DYING...


不~应该还活着



因为看不见,才有感觉有视力

因为尝不到,才感觉五官其中之一还在
因为有声音,有味道,周围都有人存在,才知道自己还在世
手脚不肯动,因为是感觉不到自己有灵魂,但,又知道自己的存在
我还在,因为有人给了拥抱
有烦恼,所以每时每刻都在想有的没的
心情是好是坏,就是因心脏还在动跳




偶尔举起手掌,还能感觉到飘过的轻风。。。




我还在~

Wednesday, June 23

《去他媽的生活》


今天竟然发火了!
真的很“他媽的”

最近不晓得为什么心情超烂下
感觉上没有之前的安全感的存在了

偶尔会担心会有人讲自己坏话吗
自己会突然变自卑吗
会越来越没有“感觉”吗
以及等等,等等。。。

可能想太多了
把我mislead到这些幻想
真糟糕!

但是,最不明白
为什么自己不能做想做的东西
(就是因为有负担,时间不合,经年不拘,金钱不够的关系!)
为什么不能speakup
(就是因为怕得罪人,让人离自己远去,为了讨好别人欢喜)

真的是很《他媽的生活》
根本是自己不想要的生活却勉强自己过那种生活

今天一时火大就post了自己的感想在FB
因此,很多朋友都问了什么事
不过,现在心情好多咯
choice-can choose to leave or not to leave
n' i'm not ready yet
真的感谢关心的朋友






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Monday, June 21

-MiSS-

最近miss很多很多过去的回忆呢


~this old chair~
虽然没得靠,但是就是很有熟悉感
so miss it


~我家乡的天空~
小时候觉得没什么特别,那里的天空都一样
but the feeling not as same as this place




就是酱简单的一个字


MISS