Sunday, April 7

Lie

House's Owner : Actually how long you been here and what's your current job?

Me : *Thinking*

House's Owner : What did you do back at the hometown before?

Me : Well, better start with after my graduation from high school

House's Owner : Very well then, that's would be better!



After I graduated, I applied several colleges but I didn't went to any of them because of the high fees. Then, I went to KL to find a part-time job, and surprisingly I was offered to work as freelance model at a small local magazine company. Not to say as a model precisely, I just be a 'foot wear' model. And, with the salary I gained, enough for me to pay rental and daily expenses. But, I can't save much money with the salary I earned. Freelance means only if have available job, then I'll just have income. Therefore, I was persuaded by a friend to come here last 4 years. And, I was again offered to do modelling, yet I rejected them. I chose administration job instead. That's how I ended here.


House's Owner : Oohhh...

Roommate : *Stare in shock*


*of course the story is a bluff, but with my height, I can easily cheats people about my previous job, haha!*



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Lost 迷失

(credit to Zoe, re-edit by Jen)
真是有一段时间没进来了
因为都在想要把整个template换个新的
终于今天找个时间换一换了

这两个月里性情超差的
感觉迷失了自己
不再是自我

找不到理由关心自己
关心别人多过自己
it's just probably nature
others come 1st before me
at least that is what I felt

也渐渐发觉不懂自己想要什么
很多东西都由别人想要的排成第一
自己的排第二
should I give way?

很多事都不在状况
失踪了
不见了
找不回

should have be more cold-blooded?
letting go?
aim a new direction?

-no answer-






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